my dad, put bluntly, can be quite the fucker.
after i come back from home, upon feasting on to my delicious chicken chop, he spams the doorbell and storms in as if he's some bigshot.
then he slams the door and starts shouting stupid stuff that my ears are unwilling to receive as my brain is to decipher.

he totally ruined my appetite, and the sight of his face, even though its nt disgusting in particular, makes my stomach feel as if i just swallowed my maths homework

then he starts kp-ing me and zhi xin randomly over ridiculously insignificant matters like the lights being left on, and he does it not in a gentle way,
oh he shouts and makes a great big fuss

what a turn-off

how i wish i could make him really piss and then shut him up in a sound-proof glass box
then i would see his face turn red and see his mouth twitch incontrollably, but without all the racket it makes.
then, stuck in that empty glass box, he would be unable to vent his anger by slamming this and slamming that, beating this and beating that and he can only sit and look at me smiling delightfully at him.

that would teach him to control his bloody temper.

or maybe, i could suspend him from the house balcony and leave him dangling from 13 storeys with 10 strings. then with each time he tries to kp, i cut 1 string away.

or maybe, i could tear apart one expensive shirt in his closet each time he kp

for his own sake, he better be careful, cause im starting to picture different fates he could end up in,

of course, i am unable to do all these, and i am unwilling to taint my hands.

i really don't want to end up like him.

he might be nice sometimes, but a major portion of his life is being dedicated, wasted, at acting like a total bastard, a violent one at that

next time he dares to yank at my hair (oh yeah, asshole, you cant now, cos IM botak) i will pull his too.

well, there's no doubt who's will drop off first.

ahhhh control control control control
cannot be like him
cannot be like him

at times like this i wish he could view my blog, haha.

that's all, i think i can study for maths now, at the cost of revealing my ugly side
sian.
all your fault.