CBZ PROMOS ARE APPROACHING.

Jc is really tough. Training is on monday to friday and i arrive home arnd 7pm, my body is exhausted. and the workload is really great.

Does that mean I have to sacrifice my studies?
Or does that mean I have to compromise on training?
NO WAY AM I GOING TO LIMIT WHAT I CAN DO AND LET MY DREAMS GO
This is a true test, i must accept the challenge.
I shall seige every opportunity to study now.
I shall shut off what people say. I mean, i'm not going to be a social butterfly now and sweep the floor in the future. or wonder what "might have been" in my track season.
Im going to look back on what happened and smile because I owned it.
Sacrifices make victory so much more savourable.

I have to focus. I remember days when we were focused on running and scraping past promotional standards, yet we had great fun and relationships with each other. Why try so hard to foster relationships and trying so hard to have fun! I believe everything will come naturally. JC is full of illusions, and almost everyone doesn't mean what they say. Everyone says nice things when they don't mean it, and telling someone the truth just makes you look like a wet blanket, or worse if the person is that thick, mean. You are so delusional.
I can't tell you how much I am NOT a wet blanket. I have the most awesome fun and I try out everything unlike you pretentious pussies I have the ill luck to share a college with. Don't fuck around with me.

you dogs! stay true to yourself, stop whining and being popularity whores!

I have to achieve a balance between two very important things for now.
I have to treat my friends like friends.
As simple as that sounds, there is alot more to that. If I want to be trusted I guess I need effort over time. I guess I need to grin and bear it because they are my friends. It has to be a relationship on both sides and I shall commit equally to what I expect but not expect returns of what I commit.

I also have to ignite the fire I once had. Where it did not matter what would happen to me even if I went all out. I need to be more competitive and have the strongest desire to win.

I believe its possible to achieve these two goals simultaneously as much as they seem to contravene to each other.

Wish me luck.

It should be just me and my goal and nothing else.
one of the reasons was because i cared too much about things around me
how people saw me, how i couldnt do it, how i my body needs a break.
what happened to me?
i appeared so confident but inside i was just insecure
what happened to the me who didnt have to talk so much and just walk the talk.

so just a few things to remind myself
->Have faith that when I train, i will definitely reach my goal, as quoted from henry.
it was so spot on. i doubted myself, i dont know what my point was in training this year, when i ran sets, i did not strive to get stronger but my aim was more to feel more comfortable. one commitment this year is not to stray to that.

so this year i shall train to win because if i train properly i will win.

->i must believe and not limit my capabilities.
->Im can do things on my own if I really want to.


looking at today's basketball match and the girl's captain, im actually pretty inspired by how its just her, her teammates and her sport during a match or probably during training as well.

why the fuck have i been caring about how people see me and how people think?
they are nothing.

If i want it I can get it

THAT'S IT MAN. YOU TAKE MY SPOT AND YOU GET LAST AND THE OTHER "DSA" GETS 2ND LAST. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU CRYING. YOU TOOK MY SPOT, AND YOU RAN SO FUCKING SLOWLY. I SHOULD BE CRYING, AT HOW I LOST MY SPOT TO SOME FUCKING J2 LOSER AND HOW PATHETIC THE WHOLE AFFAIR WAS

YOU CHILDISH PIECE OF SHIT. SO WHO SAID THEY COULD ALL RUN SUB 2:05?!?!?!?!?!
WHATS WITH ALL THE FUCKING BIG TALK?
OR WHAT, WERE THEY STILL CONSERVING AT 800M FINALS???!!!
TELL ME!!!

I SWEAR IM TAKING BACK WHATS MINE
AND MORE